At 2222 Broadway Street in privileged Pacific Heights, San Francisco, California, there lies a legacy of loud girls, short uniform skirts and goofy teachers. It wasn’t always like that, though. In 1875, James Clair Flood’s silver mine in Virginia City, Nevada discovered the greatest silver bonanza in history. James became a very wealthy man and handed down his wealth to his son, James Leary Flood. James II used that wealth to build some of the most prized buildings in San Franciscan history, including his home, where he and his wife lived. Little did he know, however, that when he built his mansion on a hill at 2222 Broadway St., that it would be home to generation after generation of bright young women.
The Flood Mansion, or Convent of the Sacred Heart, was not only my high school. It was, and continues to be, the safest place I know. For the last four years of my life, I have spent five days a week taking classes in Mr. And Mrs. Floods bedroom, going to mass in a 1920’s ballroom, and sitting in my favorite window seat in the library, looking out at a view of The Golden Gate Bridge and beyond. To say it was a not-so-typical high school, would be an understatement.
The general public has in my past shunned me for going to an all-girls schools. Peers from other “regular” or co-ed high schools made faces of pity when I told them, as if it was some incurable disease. But the inside of an all-girls school is very different than one might picture. Mine, for example, was full of bright, stylish, and fun students of all backgrounds and origins like any typical high school, except, there were only girls. The myth that schools like mine shelter growing women from gaining important social skills with boys, is a load of you know what.
With that being said, though, I am only one girl, and only one opinion. But my opinion is backed up by four years of very life changing events, many occurring because of Convent of the Sacred Heart. As an incredibly frightened freshman transfer student around Christmas time, I was astounded at the not only open arms of my new classmates, but their genuine excitement to meet and get to know me. As days, which turned into years, passed, and my friend niche formed, I would find myself getting butterflies as I sat there in the echoing, marble main hall with friends I knew I could come to for absolutely everything. That’s something so special and if I were at a co-ed school, it may have been less possible. The absence of boys only forced our miniscule class of thirty-five to become closer and closer, and by senior year, there was not one person in my class that I couldn’t genuinely call my friend. Now, sure, that could happen at co-ed schools as well, but when a voice comes out of nowhere in the middle of history class yelling, “does anybody have a tampon?!” you know it’s a bond no co-ed classes are capable of obtaining.
Being an older school, the traditions within it were extremely cherished. For example, each year, an elective group threw a very “flashy” and “fancy” fashion show for charity in the beautiful main hall (It is also a wedding venue, to give some perspective). Students prance confidently down the runway in clothing donated from boutiques nearby, as other convent girls cheer them on. But one year in particular, my sophomore year, the fashion show turned out to be a very good example of what Convent really is to me. At the end of the student portion of the show, the teachers had a turn to walk. They lined up, dressed in the goofiest outfit they could think of, and danced down the runway to blasting music, carefree of judgment or ridicule. While the whole place was exploding with laughter and cheers, I remember sitting there in awe at how they could stand up in front of an audience of two hundred students, faculty, and even parents, and be so goofy. That moment was a pivotal one for me, because they taught me to be less focused on how I appear to others. I felt safer being who I truly was inside after that, as I knew they were being exactly who they were inside as well. I do believe very strongly that I wouldn’t have learned that lesson in any other way, if I were to go to a “regular” school. The interconnectedness and acceptance of each human learning or working at Convent, enabled us as a community to freely express ourselves however we wanted.
I’m sure there are other schools out there like mine. Maybe not in a marble mansion on a hill in San Francisco, but the building was just a plus to the community I became apart of while entering those door every week for four years. The marble building, in a way, is a metaphor for the specialness of Convents community: rock solid and unbreakable. On my last day as a student, I sat on the library windowsill that looked out onto the Golden Gate Bridge, the city, and the Bay, and felt an immense pain in my chest. It was almost like I was breaking up with a long-term boyfriend, or the pain of losing a pet. I was shocked at myself, being that until that moment, I could not wait to graduate. But this new sense of panic is when all the emotions I wrote about above came flooding into my head. I had instantly received some clarity as to how much I was thankful for the eternal family I was apart of. From break ups, to deaths of beloved students in neighboring schools, to everything in between, I was scared to go out into a world where Convent wasn’t right behind me to catch my fall. But feeling that panic is exactly what helped me realize what my school meant to me.
I return to Convent every chance I can, but the feeling has changed. A space I used to view as a school has transformed back into what it was originally built as: a home. I go there for help, I go there for advice, and I go there most importantly for overall support of a family. Returning to my window seat over looking the Bay for the first time since graduation was nostalgic. Each time I return to the window seat, I think of the last time I sat there as a Convent girl when I obtained the clarity I needed to appreciate the last four years of my life. My window seat is literal, but also symbolic of the bigger community that Convent of the Sacred Heart is: a rock solid, but always changing, community.